To say that Kevin and I's relationship has been a whirlwind would be an understatement. But I wouldn't trade it for anything. We had a beautiful wedding and the cutest apartment and I love him coming home to me everyday. And now after just under 3 months of wedded bliss, we found out we were pregnant. Exciting of course. But me being the worry wart that I am, stressed and stressed about the risk of miscarriage. I have been reading blogs and articles from pregnant women and their stress didn't help ease mine. So the night before our first ultra sound I did not sleep well at all. I was so worried I would go and they would tell me there was no baby or no heartbeat. It was not a good night, thankfully my wonderful husband took me in his arms and told me everything was going to be ok. That morning while I was waiting for Kev to get home for class so we could go to our appointment I was reading my daily updates on my pregnancy (the baby was the size of raspberry that day) and was reading all these forum posts about women who went in for the first ultra sound and found out they were having twins. And I thought to myself, I can't even imagine. (Jinxed it) So we get to the appointment, start the ultra sound and the first thing out of the techs mouth. "There's two babies!" I couldn't wrap my head around it. There is one set of twins in my family, I believe they are my grandmothers uncles or something to that effect, none in Kevin's to his knowledge. So really weren't expecting it.
The doctor came in and congratulated us and told us we are now considered a high risk pregnancy, not something you want to hear, and he said the risk of miscarriage is even greater, really not something I wanted to hear. But he followed up with, "But you really shouldn't worry, they have their own placenta's and amniotic sac's and their heartbeats are strong. I think they will do just fine. (A little relief for momma) He said that I would be induced by 38 weeks if I didn't go into labor before that. (I don't have to wait as long as most so that's a plus) I also get to have an appointment every 3-4 weeks with an ultra sound so they can check the growth of both babies. So I get to see them every month!
After the appointment I called my mom and seriously for five minutes she would not believe me, I kept saying mom I have pictures, why would I lie! haha She was just as shocked as I was apparently.
Everyone tells me its so exciting! And don't get me wrong I am very excited, double the babies double the blessings. But I am also stressed, it also means two of everything, we are hoping for the same gender so they can share more things. But we have to get two of all the expensive things. Cribs (luckily I already bought a cheap one so just need to find another), car seats (oh soo expensive, yet oh so necessary) and definitely a stroller, (I don't think I could manage without one.)
The doctor also said people will tell you how hard it is to have twins, but this is your first so you won't know the difference. Too true. I am grateful for that. Also I haven't been super sick. I am nauseous all the time and heartburn is a killer but I will take those over morning sickness any day. My favorite part (and hardest part) is eating! I now have a license to eat and eat, but sadly most things just don't taste great anymore. Its a struggle but it will be worth it. I also get to nap and lots. I really can't complain about that.
I really am so grateful for this blessing. It is going to be a great adventure and I am so glad I have Kevin here to help me through it. And I am grateful for the huge support system we have, I know both our parents would be more than willing to help anyway they can.
Can't wait to start showing. I know I might regret that once I get to be the size of a boat but it will be nice to see and feel them every day. Only a few more weeks till the end of my first trimester. They say the second is the best. Here's hoping!
